Hi to my readers. :? I'm actually feeling quite down recently. Not sure what's the problem. But I guess the problem wasn't cause by my monthly visitor. Hmm. I don't really know how to write this post. But my mind keep telling me I should write what I feels here. *BIG Sigh!*

Alright! I'll start here. First of all, I am VERY VERY VERY unhappy with my buddies and some other friends. WOW! This really annoys me a lot! I don't know what I did to receive such treatment you know? I feel neglected as a friend of theirs and also I feel sad about having a friendship like this. Sighs.. Am I such a girl that makes all of you want to avoid me so much? O.M.G. I don't know what am I doing now or whatever it is. I only know I hated people to treat me like this. I felt like I'm being used as a tool. Something liked, you need "it", you use "it". When you don't need "it", you put "it" one side. Oh com'on! I'm not a tool! Don't treat me like that! I don't like it! ARGH!

Another fellow! I name YOU as "A"!
YES IT'S YOU! YOU don't have to think who is it! O.M.G! I really really hate you that much you know? I've been trying so hard to keep this friendship going on! But YOU! YOU did so much to make me feels like ending a friendship! I really at the edge of ending a friendship you know that? I don't even feel like calling you anymore. ==" You really really make me feels so angry all the time! One thing I really upset about is that you actually poison about me to your other friends! CAN YOU BELIEVE THAT? O.M.G.! I really can't believe you did this to me when I never force you to do anything! YOU can jolly well just tell me you don't want to do that! Don't have to tell your other friends that I FORCED you to do it! I NEVER! I NEVER! I NEVER!!!! Fcuk shit! I HATE YOU!

Another fellow! I name YOU as "B"!!
I don't know why my life is somehow revolves around all this kind of shity friends! I seriously don't need another one more to join in this kind of shits. When you need someone to chat I'm always there for you. But you? Every time when I wanted to chat with you, you gave me a cold shoulder. How the hell would you want me to chat anymore? Do you know that I felt awkward about it? Shits! This is so shity! I don't know what else I can say anymore. I just wish you didn't came back and chat with me. And that I could let things just go pass like a history. Why did you have to come back and find me?

*P.s. It's not that guy you all think it is. It's someone else.

Sometimes I really don't know what my life is all about. I really just hate it. I don't know why I'm just stuck with all this kind of sai kang. I don't want be a sai kang warrior! Not worth it. ==" Help. Zzzz...

Save me from all this shit please, God!

Desperate for help,
Isabelle. :S